I'm so unlike me today

This change, I just can't contain,
This shift in persona, is a constant strain,
I feel like I'm confused,surrounded by fog,
I tried to get out but I can't clear this smog,
I want to slip away, live in a jungle,
But I can't...
I'm too social, I'm young, free and single.

Nowadays love and affection don't even faze me,
I've become selfish, too self centred to feel and to see,
It's all the same, I don't care about anyone,
Sick and tired of all this worldly tension.

I won't say I'm on self destructive road,
I'm just a bit distracted that's all,
Either way I'm not following my own code,
I'm thoughtless and stupid, too easy to fall.

Gorgeous You

Looking at you made me believe,
Loving you will be my soul's reprieve,
Don't know how much you will understand of me,
I can elaborate to you, just one Date as a fee!

A conversation with you was beautiful...literally,
Those haunting hazel eyes of yours were eating me,
I cant stop imagining you day or night,
To meet you again, A poem i'm going to write.

Many times its hard to see,
Even my own words torment and torture me,
I calm them down by making a deal,
cause inside i know exactly how i feel.

Things like "I love you", I cant say out loud,
But i always find a place to write it down,
poems are my emotions, as deep as a sea,
I want those hazel eyes of yours always on me.

My dear loneliness!!!

Hello my dear loneliness,
I'm here to talk to you again,
You must be tired of me Cause I always creepe in,
Something happened when I was thinking,
I felt this chill of some affection and its beginning.

I search my heart for its true sorrow,
To be alive, it's that 'humanity' I borrow,
Now memories gather dust thru a hole so narrow,
I don't know how I feel now, today or tomorrow.

My lovely loneliness...

I'm a heartful case, now I face the acquittal,
My heart grows weary of anyone and everyone,
I couldn't get to know myself, in time so little,
My mind is a maze, it's a complex riddle.

It's little I know, what's in my stupid mind and heart,
But there's that in me, i must get up and start,
It is  all so cause love comes in shadow and it just departs.
It's hurtful and it brings tears, swallow  my thoughtful heart.

What comes to mind, it's there in following lines

I want to write about Time,
an entity for which world is less sublime,
We are trapped inside this natural bubble,
When I think like this I fumble.

I want to write about our glorious sun,
Without it sands of life would never run,
I wake to watch the sun rise
Every single day,
I may not be a believer but
I trust in what 'they' say!!!

I want to write about air,
Something that preserves life without any fare,
It's everywhere, it's in everyone,
Its presence is god like in every cell
where all humanity begun.

I have written about every entity,
In this one and in my general poetry,
They are close to my heart,
They don't need special attension,
Cause they are doing their job,
I'm thankful to them for their rigourous support,
But we humans are greedy and can't be controlled,
There should be a punishment coming our way,
I hope we don't survive it at all, that's the price we will have to pay.

Innocence

Innocence feels exquisite,
When our eyes meet,
You are too close to my sight,
Even though you are away few feet.

You are laughing with your friends,
Having a really good time,
I wouldn't mind to just look at you from distance ,
Don't want to disturb that sight.

No doubt you are really cute,
In a sec you caught my eye,
You stand out too much,
When you laugh and smile like you are high.

You are too young for me to make a move,
Gap would too much to bare,
I think you think of me as same age,
But that's not what's behind
This mortal face that I wear.

The routine

When past and present locked anchors behind my tremulous day,
How much joy I felt few in the merry month of may,
Why does it happen so,
Is fate bound to be my foe,
Why such concern of the unknown,
I entered this world and I gotta leave it alone.

When love, affection and hate bites me all over,
I run away in dark jungle,  just like a rover,
I find myself a silent place, to sleep and drink,
Words are my food there,
thoughts are paper n ink.

When I become smart just for a change,
Maturity comes to me in form of noblesse and i act strange,
But it's a perfect place I want to be,
Away from mind the noisy machine,
But that smart-ass me fades away in matter of time,
I'm back to the place from whom I fear and hide.

What's with girls and Me!!!!

Even though I know,
No feeling you'll ever show,
What ever the truth maybe,
But I'm leaving  u... Cause I might be crazy.

I'm crazy that I expect,
I'm crazy cause I respect,
I'm such a person who'll never deflect,
Any worry or tension about you.

I'm sad though, I'm sad cause of you,
I write something good, n I get reply with words very few,
I'm like a kid who expects candy or anything miner,
After a correct answer, Instead I get smileys or one liners.

I do write without any anticipation,
I go beyond my limit to impress your emotion,
But I just get an OMG, with cute smiley again,
I'm tired of that smiley shit...
Aren't there good words you learned in your high-school days.

I can't get angry at you,
You know the reason in very thorough,
Why you play so unknown and uncool,
My heart saddens every time.

I shouldn't lash it all on you,
It's the same with Every girl I knew,
And as I said I might be too old for this poetry,
That era has gone and it's buried in the cemetery!!!

Your Eyes!!!

What's up, now What you've done,
Asking such question , but answer came in none,
Beaming with sheer joy as you took a selfie like always,
Your beauteous almond eye's the biggest,
the brightest of the stars in its own ways!!!

Crazily happily you gazed in that camera,
It Teases me with its bold colored Iris, 
It'll never happen like almond eyes I no longer craze,
Cause poems are made on you and are sure to make you amaze.

There's no crying beneath the skies,
there's no hiding behind your eyes,
They tell your every feeling,
They scream them loud and clear,
How you are so beautiful...your eyes says it all,
How charming you are...your eyes says it all!!!

I'm not the reason to write this poem to you,
It's ur eyes which has forced me to,
So don't blame me if I say so,
You look beautiful in each photo, this you know I know!!!

Such connection we share!!!

More than you, I'm aware,
Of this connection that we share,
I know it seems like,
in different dimension I stare,
But you are the person,
whose memories I Bear.

I'm quite shy to confess,
can't explain why the feelings I compress,
It's natural to be in so much distress,
You have evolved in my mind,
And your selfies are there to impress.

If I have behaved like a stupid, just let me know,
I'll accept it blindly and I'll never behave so,
I'll know it, even though I'm a little slow,
But just don't stop talking to me
Even if this world blows!!!!

Feeling in words to a certain Someone!!!

A single sentence is enough,
To make heart beats faster,
Even if it's normal one in a reply,
To thoughts with which it flies higher,
Just cause of you...!!!

You have such control over me,
Unbelievable as it is to you, it's the same for me,
Will it be wrong to think our previous life connection,
Well I like to imagine world differently
When I looking in your direction!

My friends tell me, I'm way out of my league,
Whether it's true or not
I have my love for u and that I certainly believe,
I fly high even on a single thought of you in my life,
Will it happen or not...I don't know,
I just hope fate and destiny won't strife!!

I don't listen to friends...
They must be jealous of hearing your name alone,
I'm shocked to the fact how they came to know,
It must be every poem I wrote about you,
It describes the perfect woman
The rarest soul I ever knew!!!

Curve Ball pitch!!!

A curve ball I faced on the first day of office,
without any defence on my side,
it was you my friend, from the very moment,
I felt something of great importance in your hazel eyes!!!

I used to belittle myself too much,
Never tried to make a move on you,
you were with someone back then,
leaving no room to say something to you!!!

Days went by
but feeling were still the same,
You were gorgeous&unforgettable as ur now,
My heart wandered in so many dreams,
Just to see you in it some how!!!

I must clear one thing though...

I've known you for the last 4 years,
But never saw your dark side,
Well I don't intend to see it anyway,
I hope it's not as bad as mine!!!

I'm a person of infinite interest,
Its tiring for people around me,
So I hope to work from home(in few years),
Being freelancer and a House daddy!!!

It's super weird but I ain't scared or ashamed,
My house I would love to take care,
I'll be with my kids all day,
I'll train them to be a ninja or table tennis player!!!

I'm a loyal person,
And The best of its kind,
I don't know what you prefer,
I'm a bit normal with a weirdly different brilliant mind!!!

So like these lines if you could,
Think about it if you could,
If Already reserved then it's not an issue,
I gotta try to find another one like you !!!

About unknown Beautiful Face!!!

An Unknown face,
Looked at me,
Forcing me to,
Loosen up my  security!!!

Why does it happen,
A lot of times,
I get striked,
Under unknown skies,
Her kin...influences my mind,
And I get affected to write!!!

How should I tell them this,
In such encounter I find bliss,
They look heavenly & I love such nameless moments,
Loving that stranger is temporary like fragrances or scents!!!

Just Take Care

You are working hard to achieve your dreams,
It's there in ur eyes till the end of the day,
don't work too much, enjoy happy moments,
Which will come in your life...in your way.

Rest your eyes for a day or so,
Rest your mind for some time at least lady,
You work way too hard to go closer,
To the world of your dream n to keep it steady!!!

Even if you wound yourself,
don't falter and don't be scared,
Let it pain, let it ache,
It'll be a memory and experience for your own sake.

I'm not consulting you,
Nor do I have any right or experience,
But it'll pain me to no end,
To see you disheartened.

Just be you,
strong and confident, Careful and happy,
Take out time for your own,
I know for sure,
You'll make your dream a beautiful reality!!

Mixed feelings of my life

It's such an irony when I write something,
It just stays in my note book or mobile,
I can't even send it to the person I'm writing about,
It's either love or affection from some time.

I'm so clueless what I'll do about these poems,
It's a sentiment from my heart,
I may have been born in a wrong era, I think,
Where poetry hold no respect nor ground.

I'm not sad about it thought,
You may think I am depressed,
I'm just happy that I have words to spare,
My poetic thoughts over anger or distress.

My life is not so complicated,
I just made it to be,
How did this transformation went on,
Somebody pls explain it to me.

I was a super shy guy,
Almost invisible in college days,
One day changed me when I was in a hurry,
On that morning of 2000 February .

She just appeared infrnt of me,
From that morning fog,
I felt like I finally saw,
A goddess in a human form.

I'm not being extraneous here,
The scenario was like that,
But I was never the same next day,
Poetry gave me new life to start.

Dream and imagination of hers,
Became my best buds,
Looking at her everyday was heavenly bliss,
I did live few amazing days,
without a taint of woe like this.

It wouldn't be wrong to say,
I stalked her from a distance,
Watching her all the time in class,
Became more important than exams to pass.

Her mom was my professor in college,
She knew me from the day one,
Apparently I helped her after an accident,
Once when I went for a morning run.

She introduced me to the that girl,
And told her who I was,
She held my hand said thanks with a smile,
I said to the life and world...now it's OK even if I die.

Such a memory it is,
Randomly it came to my mind,
Wrote these many lines to tire you out,
Just to tell you she's happy with someone better...Yeah she's a happy mom without a doubt!!!

What inspires me!!!

Do words inspire me to write,
Or it's time of loneliness talking to me,
I just write that's all there,
and I write so randomly.

it's not pain nor it's affection for some,
I'm a private person, but I'm not so dumb,
Try as I might, I could fathom,
I wonder some times,
What did Eve say when she met up with Adam.

As I mentioned to you My dear reader,
You are reading something That's freaking random,
Thoughts come and go as they want,
In my solitude they haunt ,
Like morning dew on the lawn,
Imagination is unlimited,
When words help you colour your dawn.

So I leave you now,
Smile no smile,  Frown no frown,
I'm still writing, I'm still thinking,
While keeping my head upside down.

The elusive side

I wouldn't know the feeling of having someone beside,
It's not so bad when I say it,  but it is when I write,
How this all sounds, it's funny & sad at the same time,
My search is incomplete and 'time'...It always flies.

What should I do, where do I find the one,
For me It's a million dollar question ,
I'm suffering a bad case of lyrical congestion,
I'm under lot of stress...Getting a one way ticket to isolation.
At such times...

Like an Eagle,  self-doubt takes a flight,
In such chaos he goes everywhere ...
Either Left or right,
Uncertainty lands perfectly unto my mind,
In such confusion I end up in elusive side.

The teenager in me!!!

Why do I follow you & disturb you,
I wouldn't, if you didn't knew,
contact makes heart springs up anew,
It's something I wrote all for you.

You know me clearly,
Despicable with attitude but elite with words & poetry,
I know it's not 70's or 80's anymore,
To woo someone over few rhyming lines or scores,
But what else can I try,
I'm a gentleman at heart but I'm indeed damn shy.

You are one hell of a girl
You shine even on a rainy day
You are brave and away from sorrow
I know that's not a cliché
I hope to meet you again
Again and all over again
Cause I liked you in the past
And funnily I still do
I'm a scaredy cat of confrontation
I'm still a teenager at heart
Who still likes you.

Just a last note

Don't trouble yourself calling me,
Calling me friend, colleague or brother,
I'm a zombie or inhuman to be,
Don't ever just bother.

I wish I was too dead to cry,
To cry like this idiotically,
I'm so numb dumb to suffer,
Hope at least death will meet me ideally.

I wish I was more clear,
Clear about my goal and reason,
I wouldn't have looked like this,
Cause my flaws were like open season.

So you really don't need to bother,
To care for me in any way,
It'll waste time, words, and other things,
I'll soon go far far away!!!