It's all because of you

How can I turn my time back,
cause I have wasted it on you,
You have been unfaithful and blind,
cause you didn't see my love for u which was true.

How can I not get hurt,
even though I'm a man,
Thanks to you I have a bleeding heart now,
in such despair its calling out someone whom it can't.

How can I forget all the feelings stored,
the soft touch of your glowing skin,
with ur sweet voice, songs and poems you rhyming,
your gaze that always stopped my heart,
mesmerizing u were until your sudden depart.

I can't put a finger on the feeling I'm going thru,
its painful, its regretful,
its full of fear of future,
its sad, its angry,
its full of some kind of torture.

Here to Stay

Tonight I'm Thinking of the morning dream,
with tired ghosts of the day,
they surround me after sunset,
it feels unreal,illusory and appalling in a way.

I asked Where the sun was before an hour,
it said goodbyes before my mind could sway,
now the dark has spread everywhere,
across all the silent bay.

I'm all alone with these ghostly creatures,
In the dark night, in this way,
its fine,
its al-right,
cause I'm more annoyed than afraid,
I'm quite acquainted and friendly with them,
because they are here to stay !!!

Farewell for forever !

Did I ever touch u,
Not in this physical world,
Did my charm ever made you fall,
Not because of gravity
I'm asking all in all!

it doesn't matter,
It's a farewell goodbye,
It's no longer so important,
Cause I'm indeed a bad guy.

I don't want to live, ohh,
Away from love or hope,
I don't want to remember you,
Cause I'm alone at the end of the rope.

Now I'm becoming desensitized,
To the feeling of having even a Friend,
I think I'm leaning,
Into that part of my darkness,
Where selfishness dwells with loneliness.
Yes I'm a bad guy
And I guess it's about time,
I run far, far away like an insane,
To find comfort in isolation and pain,
So I say now,
I bid you adieu,
Hope to never cross path,
Hope to never ever interact!!!

My Imagery

I want to write so much these days,
but I couldn't find anyone beside me,
search for another soul is in the process,
but for now I am blind and its too hard to see.

its not a sad poem,
at least i don't mean it to be,
its just an image of what I am not thinking,
its just like a lost snowflake in a shallow sea.

I feel so confused,
even words tremble in their sleep,
they woke up so late and stared at me,
cursing my dreams and my imagery.

Don't pity Me!!!

It's not a regret,
No it's not a sad title either,
Poem I'm writing is about choices,
Choices I should've made.

I wish I had never been on this path,
Of sadness and loneliness,
Where my soul has become selfish,
& now I'm not big on social graces.

I wish I had befriended my mind
Long before the dooms day
Instead of impudent decisions
& then time just ran away.

'Don't pity Me' my mind shouts out loud,
Only he and Me aren't the only at fault,
Society& people around sculpted this behaviour,
I think I abandoned myself solely for despair.