I'm so unlike me today

This change, I just can't contain,
This shift in persona, is a constant strain,
I feel like I'm confused,surrounded by fog,
I tried to get out but I can't clear this smog,
I want to slip away, live in a jungle,
But I can't...
I'm too social, I'm young, free and single.

Nowadays love and affection don't even faze me,
I've become selfish, too self centred to feel and to see,
It's all the same, I don't care about anyone,
Sick and tired of all this worldly tension.

I won't say I'm on self destructive road,
I'm just a bit distracted that's all,
Either way I'm not following my own code,
I'm thoughtless and stupid, too easy to fall.

Gorgeous You

Looking at you made me believe,
Loving you will be my soul's reprieve,
Don't know how much you will understand of me,
I can elaborate to you, just one Date as a fee!

A conversation with you was beautiful...literally,
Those haunting hazel eyes of yours were eating me,
I cant stop imagining you day or night,
To meet you again, A poem i'm going to write.

Many times its hard to see,
Even my own words torment and torture me,
I calm them down by making a deal,
cause inside i know exactly how i feel.

Things like "I love you", I cant say out loud,
But i always find a place to write it down,
poems are my emotions, as deep as a sea,
I want those hazel eyes of yours always on me.

My dear loneliness!!!

Hello my dear loneliness,
I'm here to talk to you again,
You must be tired of me Cause I always creepe in,
Something happened when I was thinking,
I felt this chill of some affection and its beginning.

I search my heart for its true sorrow,
To be alive, it's that 'humanity' I borrow,
Now memories gather dust thru a hole so narrow,
I don't know how I feel now, today or tomorrow.

My lovely loneliness...

I'm a heartful case, now I face the acquittal,
My heart grows weary of anyone and everyone,
I couldn't get to know myself, in time so little,
My mind is a maze, it's a complex riddle.

It's little I know, what's in my stupid mind and heart,
But there's that in me, i must get up and start,
It is  all so cause love comes in shadow and it just departs.
It's hurtful and it brings tears, swallow  my thoughtful heart.

What comes to mind, it's there in following lines

I want to write about Time,
an entity for which world is less sublime,
We are trapped inside this natural bubble,
When I think like this I fumble.

I want to write about our glorious sun,
Without it sands of life would never run,
I wake to watch the sun rise
Every single day,
I may not be a believer but
I trust in what 'they' say!!!

I want to write about air,
Something that preserves life without any fare,
It's everywhere, it's in everyone,
Its presence is god like in every cell
where all humanity begun.

I have written about every entity,
In this one and in my general poetry,
They are close to my heart,
They don't need special attension,
Cause they are doing their job,
I'm thankful to them for their rigourous support,
But we humans are greedy and can't be controlled,
There should be a punishment coming our way,
I hope we don't survive it at all, that's the price we will have to pay.

Innocence

Innocence feels exquisite,
When our eyes meet,
You are too close to my sight,
Even though you are away few feet.

You are laughing with your friends,
Having a really good time,
I wouldn't mind to just look at you from distance ,
Don't want to disturb that sight.

No doubt you are really cute,
In a sec you caught my eye,
You stand out too much,
When you laugh and smile like you are high.

You are too young for me to make a move,
Gap would too much to bare,
I think you think of me as same age,
But that's not what's behind
This mortal face that I wear.

The routine

When past and present locked anchors behind my tremulous day,
How much joy I felt few in the merry month of may,
Why does it happen so,
Is fate bound to be my foe,
Why such concern of the unknown,
I entered this world and I gotta leave it alone.

When love, affection and hate bites me all over,
I run away in dark jungle,  just like a rover,
I find myself a silent place, to sleep and drink,
Words are my food there,
thoughts are paper n ink.

When I become smart just for a change,
Maturity comes to me in form of noblesse and i act strange,
But it's a perfect place I want to be,
Away from mind the noisy machine,
But that smart-ass me fades away in matter of time,
I'm back to the place from whom I fear and hide.

What's with girls and Me!!!!

Even though I know,
No feeling you'll ever show,
What ever the truth maybe,
But I'm leaving  u... Cause I might be crazy.

I'm crazy that I expect,
I'm crazy cause I respect,
I'm such a person who'll never deflect,
Any worry or tension about you.

I'm sad though, I'm sad cause of you,
I write something good, n I get reply with words very few,
I'm like a kid who expects candy or anything miner,
After a correct answer, Instead I get smileys or one liners.

I do write without any anticipation,
I go beyond my limit to impress your emotion,
But I just get an OMG, with cute smiley again,
I'm tired of that smiley shit...
Aren't there good words you learned in your high-school days.

I can't get angry at you,
You know the reason in very thorough,
Why you play so unknown and uncool,
My heart saddens every time.

I shouldn't lash it all on you,
It's the same with Every girl I knew,
And as I said I might be too old for this poetry,
That era has gone and it's buried in the cemetery!!!