A Robotic Doll

A stranger to human affection,
He'd never quite gotten used to her hugs,
He never understood what life is,
He is just a human who has breathing lungs.

Strange is everything to him,
Even her beautiful worried face,
Drop of tears have no significance,
In his psyche it's all fake.

I wonder what kind of trauma is it,
That burned his human soul,
Love has no place in his world now,
He is just a robotic doll.

Unknown pain of not knowing

Never been this optimistic
About taking her seriously,
Never been so keen on
Impressing her again & again,
It's a difficult job
To find words to write about her,
As a result
My heart ache has increased,
Reaching a critical level.

I don't know
What her answer will be,
I won't say
I'm fine if turned down,
I wouldn't feel sad
As I've loved you more,
I wouldn't forget
I've memories of you restored.

To be continued…

This talkative I become
When I think of her
And I seriously don't think it's curable

To Forget You

I had enough of pursuing love of life
I cant take it anymore
I'm being torn apart everyday & every second
when ever I'm alone.

Every time we speak with each other
I become more attracted to you
your beauty and affection are the criminals here
about that my poor heart didn't knew.

Ever since that day
My heart has been crying for you
& I don't want to have empty days anymore
so I tried to forget you.

Most Obvious Question?

People often ask me,
You think of your self as hopeless romantic,
you write these so called poems,
why there isn't any one in ur life yet,
what you call "the dream girl "...?

I smile and refuse to answer often,
but I thought about it last night,
Why don't I have a girl friend,
whom i can talk, dance and fight.

'People are so melodramatic', I thought
always trying to spice things up,
but this question of 'Not having a Girlfriend'
is really getting on my nerves.

In some time people stopped asking me that
but created another question monster,
'what type of girl you like or what qualities you prefer'
are my friends Wedding contractors or are they just curious to know
I couldn't figure it out so I didn't let this one go.

I will write down my "preferences"
in another poem someday
this time just read these lines
try to smile will you..to what ever it says.

back to poem:
Now that I'm 28 and single
I compare myself to TV or Movie characters
my favorite: Ted Mosby from How I Met Your Mother
or Charlie from My Sassy Girl

Its funny to write like this
it might even look desperate to many of you
yeah I really am waiting for that perfect one
who will understand me
not the way I behave
but the psyche of the life which drives me.

Its all about you

Ever since I saw your face
I've been staring in the nothing
you smiling or looking at me
its all I'm imagining

I never saw it coming
that fate will send someone my way
never thought it'll be you
the best thing of every single day

When ever you are explaining something
I look at you to save that very moment
let it be
the expressions, the laughter, the smile you give
angry voice, frustrated tone and answers you seek
you hurt your leg while moving a chair,
you drop something on ground somewhere,
your accident-proneness hurts me too,
seeing you in a bit of pain, it pains me too.

I cant put all my thoughts in words
as I'm not as good as you are with them
& if you ever read this and remember me by
then the mission of this poem will be a success

Just want to say thanks to you
for entering into my life
I'll always treasure these memories of you
oh dear professor of mine.

the unspoken thought

Always hesitated,
to put out my unspoken thought,
it lingers in my mind & in my heart,
yeah its about you what else could it be,
nothing good ever happened until you befriended me,
when a spark of light by you lightened up my soul,
darkness faded away like it wasn't there before,
your eyes  calm, kind and beautiful,
they brought back lost hope of my own,
your presence has changed every tiny bit of my life,
cause of you I was not troubled with other folk's strife
you are the reason day starts with shiny and bright light,
i wont leave you cause I wanna be there by your side.

.....To be continued...