Why did you created me!!!???

When death will come to me,
Beautiful rain I won't see,
Sun won't touch my face,
Moon will fold in a faint embrace.

I'll make new friends,
In the other world where I'll be,
Heaven or Hell, it's still undecided,
But things are indeed wicked,
Arousing my curiosity.

If Hell allotted to me,
Neither shall I feel sad nor any empathy,
I'm a man with a dark past,
Let's say, I ate life of thousand lives
without any sympathy.

There is no place I desire to go,
Nobody is ther, who's waiting for me,
I'm a killer and a murderer,
Of all my hope, fate and destiny.

If I'm shown passage to heaven,
I shall find that God,
The One who created me,
Just for amusement,
He gave me this mind like a scar,
And abandoned me for eternity!

I may have been the puppet,
Of this time of life that binds,
I don't know the righteous path,
To go on to, wher my decree guides.

I shall avenge all my friends,
That I killed with my bare hands,
Without any love or regret,
I did such deed,
Oh my lord of lords
Why did u create me!?

Innocence Or idiocy

Either my innocence or the plain idiocy
literally amazes me,
Saying so because,
I was happy to see your call
that came unexpectedly.

We are good friends,
And thats the best part,
I don't know, with this poem,
you'll be comfortable or not.

I'm writing this
Cause I wanted to write,
Since so long
It was on my mind.

Let me clear the air for you,
Before questions pop up in your mind,
It's a poetic theme I came across,
So It's not what it looks like.

Words help me write these feelings,
They are Unknown, anonymous and a bit appealing,
Your call in the middle of the day,
Made me think you need help in some way
But it was a sheer mistake
And that was a funny incidental break

So thanks for that call
In a way you saved me from a fall
It also became a theme for this song
It's all fate!!!

Oh my Iove of life

Every single touch
By someone special
Has its own memory
It's indeed sentimental

It's for u my love

its significant presence in you
Beats of my heart that comes to
U don't know what u need to do
And I'm here stifled by your aroma.

You drown me in my own sweet bitterness
You hypnotize my heart endless
I'm filled with your warm caress
And now I'm more than vivid and enthralling

What more words should I choose
I'm so happy , I'm singing the blues
No I'm not wasted on cheap foreign booze
It's your touch that gets Me high!

So, be with me forever
All time by my side
Flow thru my vein
Let my sleep go in vain
I don't care of anybody but u
I love u more than u
my Coffee mug is shiney clean
Just for u my dear love...oh my Caffeine

It's all because of you

How can I turn my time back,
cause I have wasted it on you,
You have been unfaithful and blind,
cause you didn't see my love for u which was true.

How can I not get hurt,
even though I'm a man,
Thanks to you I have a bleeding heart now,
in such despair its calling out someone whom it can't.

How can I forget all the feelings stored,
the soft touch of your glowing skin,
with ur sweet voice, songs and poems you rhyming,
your gaze that always stopped my heart,
mesmerizing u were until your sudden depart.

I can't put a finger on the feeling I'm going thru,
its painful, its regretful,
its full of fear of future,
its sad, its angry,
its full of some kind of torture.

Here to Stay

Tonight I'm Thinking of the morning dream,
with tired ghosts of the day,
they surround me after sunset,
it feels unreal,illusory and appalling in a way.

I asked Where the sun was before an hour,
it said goodbyes before my mind could sway,
now the dark has spread everywhere,
across all the silent bay.

I'm all alone with these ghostly creatures,
In the dark night, in this way,
its fine,
its al-right,
cause I'm more annoyed than afraid,
I'm quite acquainted and friendly with them,
because they are here to stay !!!

Farewell for forever !

Did I ever touch u,
Not in this physical world,
Did my charm ever made you fall,
Not because of gravity
I'm asking all in all!

it doesn't matter,
It's a farewell goodbye,
It's no longer so important,
Cause I'm indeed a bad guy.

I don't want to live, ohh,
Away from love or hope,
I don't want to remember you,
Cause I'm alone at the end of the rope.

Now I'm becoming desensitized,
To the feeling of having even a Friend,
I think I'm leaning,
Into that part of my darkness,
Where selfishness dwells with loneliness.
Yes I'm a bad guy
And I guess it's about time,
I run far, far away like an insane,
To find comfort in isolation and pain,
So I say now,
I bid you adieu,
Hope to never cross path,
Hope to never ever interact!!!

My Imagery

I want to write so much these days,
but I couldn't find anyone beside me,
search for another soul is in the process,
but for now I am blind and its too hard to see.

its not a sad poem,
at least i don't mean it to be,
its just an image of what I am not thinking,
its just like a lost snowflake in a shallow sea.

I feel so confused,
even words tremble in their sleep,
they woke up so late and stared at me,
cursing my dreams and my imagery.

Don't pity Me!!!

It's not a regret,
No it's not a sad title either,
Poem I'm writing is about choices,
Choices I should've made.

I wish I had never been on this path,
Of sadness and loneliness,
Where my soul has become selfish,
& now I'm not big on social graces.

I wish I had befriended my mind
Long before the dooms day
Instead of impudent decisions
& then time just ran away.

'Don't pity Me' my mind shouts out loud,
Only he and Me aren't the only at fault,
Society& people around sculpted this behaviour,
I think I abandoned myself solely for despair.

I will and shall forget you dearly

I will and shall forget you dearly,
its something that doesnt come naturally to me,
but u r indeed someone speacial,
for u i have changed myself & became a bit in-prudential.

I know there are layers beneath the layers,
you always switch urself in between,
you got no control over these moods,
you hurt my heart while the wound was fresh and clean.

I dont want to witness again,
downfall of my mind,
Neither I'm yearning for redefined lies,
but yes, I'm learning from the past goodbyes.

I can no longer believe you'll come back clean,
it has become an uncertain thing,
then I thought,
Why should i bother, she's not mine,
This is the way I fell out of your love line.

How you affect me!!!

Every single touch ,
By someone special,
Has its own memory,
It's indeed sentimental.

It's for u my love...

its significant presence in you,
Beats of my heart that comes to,
U don't know what u need to do,
And I'm here stifled by your aroma.

You drown me in my own sweet bitterness,
You hypnotize my heart endless,
I'm filled with your warm caress,
And now I'm more than vivid and enthralling.

What more words should I choose,
I'm so happy , I'm singing the blues,
No I'm not wasted on cheap foreign booze,
It's your touch that gets Me high!

Connection of Love and Poetry

I hold my hands out
trying to catch any falling letter
when ever I say to you
I love you more than ever

I get up and run
out of my lazy comfort zone
just to meet you, see you
befor your love turns to stone

cold breath or frozen limbs
I'm struggling even to think
Although I dont care any more
Leaving all why I settle with you for.

The reason I left is not so invisible
And I don't feel loved ,
Not even liked by u,
I've found the truth and it's true!

Until you invaded my mind
I used to be my own protector
every word you start to speak now
It sets off my lie detector

That's all I can say
Even words aren't helping
I'm not in love anymore you see
It's Work and Coffee like connection
Same with Love and Poetry. 

Being an Introvert

I think it's difficult
Or I'm the only one getting it wrong
Leap of faith I'm missing
Not trusting fate or destiny at all

Yeah I'm talking about marriage
only thing that scares me in my dreams
Its an unknown scenario
Pitch black stage
Where I can't hear my own scream

I think too much
So I've been told many a times
Its an introvertial disease
Incurable of cost
Let it be gold or a single dime

I'm at war with myself
Over this label of 'introvert'
Can some one help
I'm in pain and I'm hurt!!!

My dear Sleep

I'm looking for words
And their help as i'm trying to be honest,
with such concealment around Me there is just, nothing but silence.
I apologize for going out of the mark
my dear sleep,
I cant help it tonight but to write something or to read.

I'll go back to sleep I promise...
I just want someone to be beside me
a virtual appearance'll do
even a ghost will suffice for a change in the scene.

My dear sleep
wait for a bit
let the words take me to other world
let my fantasy dreams accompany me
Let the emotions and memories possess me

Words of an Introvert

I surprise myself
By digging out buried memories
It's sometimes hurtful
It's sometimes sad
It's a bit difficult to explain
Why I came at!

I amuse myself
With emotional torment
With bittersweet joy
It's a chemical mixture of all possibilities
Where do I think I lie!

I confuse myself
By calling upon all the words
Confounding my mind
With tsunami of problems
I dwell in this world
All but nothing by my side!

No, it's not a sad story
Nor a sad life that I live
I've labeled myself an Introvert
Who enjoy sadness and the imagination
Which never fails to perceive

My mind

This mind is a maze
The more you explore
The more it craves
I find it difficult
I can't complain
Cause I'm a sinking boat
& fate's damn slave
Free fall from emotional cliff
Attracts all the pain
Happiness comes along slowly
It's good, Even though it's too late
Sometimes I don't know
What I'm thinking
I'm lost into thy maze
Help me
Steal me
Kill me if you can
I gotta get up there
Where heavens float
Watching us all
Suffer in vain

Runaway convict of happiness!

I'm a runaway convict
Hiding from the hands of happiness
Can't figure out the reason why
I was in love and had became a bit careless

I find myself in trouble
U entered where I don't allow
I'll have to run again
But its so hard to breath  now

My mind is heavy with your imagery
Busy in calculating chemistry
Its not a feeling that I'm used to
I lived my life away from devils like you

You cracked the wall of hardest heart
Slipped inside like a Paper or a dart
Manipulated my mind thru looks and smile
Finally u showed ur Innocence of a guile

Be safe

Lady I can feel your pain
Even if you are near Me or away
Lady I can't say I can ease that pain
Even when this mind cares for u in
night and day!!!

It hurts to see u hurt
It hurts to know there's nothing I can change
But I know
You'll be beautiful you again
& in no time you will be like old You
Mysterious & Miss strange :D !!!

Just get out of that freaky aching space
Back To old routine of French & Test
Your students need you...oh my grace
Finally I completed my poem quest!

Matter

Matter left behind in dark
Along with the glow of light
Its only visible in darkness
That's when it enlightens the night

Stars are concealed in the sky
Light covers up their presence
Only the pitch black stage of twilight
Can un-hide the steps to the stars of heaven

Bulky dark clouds
covered up the hunters moon
A storm is approaching towards forest
It seems as strong as a monsoon

No reason to be happy

Without any reason
I feel one of the lonesome kind
Searching for someone
Just to falsify my mind

Neither I can perceive
Nor I can change this life
Can't seem to enjoy though
cutting it to pieces with a sharp sad knife

Born with a disease of making mistakes
Unluckily it's not a terminal case
I wished it to be deadly
I'm better off this happy kind of mess!!!

Eternal Bond of Rain and Clouds

Moving across weather map
Black Clouds hover over the city
Blocking daylight and shining sun
Raindrops let itself loose crazy

People run to cover themselves
That's when the umbrellas are opened
Pond on the roads started to fill up
As the rainfal became heavier

Petrichor of first shower
is a nostalgic moment of childhood
Dancing in rain with friends and
Playing cricket in wet ground of neighborhood.

Rainy season
You hold a certain place in our hearts
Unknown of its importance but
We do share that bond
Don't ever leave us
Don't ever be late
It's just not us
But for you whole world awaits.
Hot coffee beside a foggy window
Watching clouds spat out their beads of water.

Yours Truly

Hope is delinquent
Pushing me towards you
Your magnetism pulls me
closer and out of the blue

Luck is vague
Making me confused about you
In bright daylight I dream
God of dreams please make it come true

Heart is under repair
It was broken in front of you
Memories of the past haunt me
You gave me strength to pull thru

You know me since I was 2
You know how I'm close to you
never thought love could be true
I just wanna hold you and kiss you

How my life is

Is my life safe and furled
I think like this when Shadows murmur in my deaf ears
And about the future of this world
Where will I be, in these coming years

Will I shine like sunshine
Or the darkness will shut me down
It's exciting to be part of this design
Dear fate, I seek fame and great renown

Hope let me fly
With the possibilities of what I can be
Fate give me a chance
To be what I can be
Instead of depression
And the suffering of loss
I won't give in
I would stand strong
Future is what I look forward to
With the hope of eternal peace
At night When sun sets down
With a golden crown
I sleep to dream and see
The mysterious future of me

I restrain myself from you

A poem from a Yakuza gangster to a beautiful soulful girl he loved more than anything.

To you my love who I want to stay away from

Behind this dark curtain of my eyelids,

I still see that sparkle of life,
You don't know what you've fed me,
Eternal sunshine like hope of some kind.

I restrain myself from clinging on to you,
As I am bad omen of time,
The way I breath and the life I live,
is more like a victimless crime.

I don't want to drag your pure soul to hell,
It'll be tainted with blood and fear,
I won't get even a moment of happiness,
From my life if you disappear,
Yes I want you in my life,
But my curse forbids me,
If I may ever hurt you,
A drop of your tear might just kill me.

I'm so confused,
I'm so jealous,
of freedom, emotions & feelings you people can feel,
I'm just a monster without shame & guilt,
I'm not worth this life
It all should end with me.

Duuh...Marriage is menduksai

Menduksai is a Japanese word,
Meaning of it is not so absurd,
If you really want to know it's English reword,
It's 'pain in the ass'
ya you know what you heard.

Menduksai for me is the marriage yo,
Forceful, emotional trauma to the core,
I'm Working out my own stuff ho,
It might be a smack or a punch,
Or under the belt blow.

Please Let me clear one thing yo,
It's not marriage that I resent so,
It's why you get in the first place whoa,
Girl should be tres belle not beau.

I respect women more than you know,
I wanna get with someone with a brain and so,
Let me take some time off yo,
My life is a wreck now, wanna get into
the perfect flow.

World of Death and Despair

A world so dreadful
Lifeless, without movement
Frozen and sinister it feels
Smiles on the faces of the dead

A mirthless grin
With a witchy intent
How dead I find myself
Going thru these lands of the dead

Skulls and bones caught up in a strand
Corpses missing either left or right hand
My mind is blank
with moments that don't fade
Why was I sent into
this dreadful land of the dead.

Feel like a zombie

I have been living astray,
without any hope to live or die,
i just pull myself with everything,
and with every painful step I cry,
Even though I withstand it
and I drag my feet forcefully,
with every bit of energy burning in me,
Yes, i feel like a zombie.

Let me show you the pain,
these scars have made me obtain,
this weight of the world,
which has turned me insane.

I'm disconnected with all the humans,
cause these memories hurt real bad,
even the ones borne from being kind,
I have destroyed everything that I had.

No ray of hope

I can't hear your voice,
no matter how hard I listen,
But my unspoken thoughts
Wrote itself in rhyme,
And now traveling towards you
through the passage of time.

I had lost true sight of myself
I had forgotten who we were
Not a single thought is lingering
Without that heavy weight of despair

I have indeed lost all hope
I have lost all the joy
The things that made me happy
Are long gone and locked away
underground in chains in the heart of this boy.

So you better stay away
Go on and don't look back
This madness isn't gonna stop
Unless my love
you give me a slap or a smack.

Let me be

There is an itch
Stinging my fingers
Blood lust is growing
On the anger that here lingers

Get away everyone
You don't wanna regret later
This man is a wolf
In the skin of a traitor

I'm here
Just to live alone
Don't patronize me
I'm the entity dark unknown

Don't poke the monster
I don't need your sympathy
I don't need any honor
Just let me be
Among the lively people
Who live free.

Open market of frustration

I tell you this,
Don't come crying to me,
Don't complain about world to me,
Price of your life is goin up and
it aint inflation,
Don't say anything
I'm not an open market of frustration.

Have an open mind,
Have a faith in self,
God is there to help you,
Don't put your prblms
up on somebody's shelf.

I'm also a human,
Created with a limit and control,
I may look calm and adaptive,
But This strain is reaching
way down to my soul.

Let's think logically
Let's think practically
It's a choice not a compulsion
It's a beginning not an end
So think from heart just for once
Think of me before it all ends
The matter is in your hand
Think of future and try to understand.

Empower Them

Empower women
It's easy to say
It's easy to show
Mentality of 'those' Indian men
Is a filthy place to know.
Egoists they are
Assholes they are
misogynist they are
Disrespectful they are.
They treat you low
They treat you bad
Become stronger
By psyche and by strength
Be the strongest of all
And be your own president

Don't give in to flashy looks
Don't give in there and then
Learn to identify these buggers
Into Animals, scumbags and real men

Real men won't harm you
Real men will back you up
Real men will support you
Real men will bring you up
Real men will respect you
I'm saying so cause I do
I respect this movement
I vote to empower women.

Oh Rain

Oh Rain
I have mixed feelings for you
Sorry I am, I say

I'm neither so happy
When you fall
Nor I'm sad
petrichor of the first shower
Makes me feel so glad.
When ever shower commence,
With a droplet of your essence,
Rainy season begin
fullness of joy spreads in your presence.
Until certain moment,
I do enjoy the beauty,
The second you get out of control,
You are an overdosed entity
For me.

Oh Rain
I have mixed feelings for you
Sorry I am, I say

My mind

This mind is a maze
The more you explore
The more it craves
I find it difficult
I can't complain
Cause I'm a sinking boat
And I am a slave
Free fall of that
Emotional roller coaster
Attracts all the pain
Happiness comes along slowly
It's good
Even though it's late
Sometimes I don't know
What I'm thinking
I'm lost into thy maze
Help me
Steal me
Kill me if you can
I gotta get up there
Where heavens float
Watching us all
Suffer in vain

That One day

One day shall come
I will leave with my cycle
To live away in unknown land
Without anything planned
I wouldn't care for the geography
I wouldn't care for a tent or a dormitory
I wish to become that strong
I wish to become that brave
To refuse pleasures and leisures
To refuse company or relations
Just want to stay away
From 'kindness' and empathy
From any emotion that is even near ecstasy
These things slows me down
These things make me into a clown
Just want to get away from this world
In the jungle
Away from people
Far away from being human

Game

Even though I know
Attachment is the last thing I want
But I'm forgetting this feeling of
Leaving you behind which I really can't.

I'm an emotional man
Full of feelings and Affection
Gotta step up my game my friend say
And stay away from this game of attention.

This poetic mind of mine
Blinded me of reality
Loving someone truly
is no longer a possibility.

Unknown feeling of Solitude

While Looking in mirror
I stopped and stared
Asking my own reflection
Am I prepared?
Darkness approaching
To infect my mind
Whom should I ask for help
Nobody's free and
Nobody's kind
I know I scare my 'friends'
With such depressing thoughts
Usually I'm not this dark
Being so I know
It's my loss
Closing the doors
To the outside world
Without thinking clearly
I don't know
Where I'll end-up
On this street
Of fate or destiny!!!

Just being honest with you

I was so sure about all of this,
I was sure that I would win you over,
I wanted to know you more...,
you know...
Since the day we met at that store.

You are in my life now
Where ever you are,
You are around me now
even on phone let it be,
You are in my life now
Don't just only chat
girl please talk to me.

I'm not sure if I can fake my feelings,
I only write when I'm sad,
I'm no longer a loner I think,
But only writing poems isn't all I've had.

You are in my life now
Where ever you are,
You are around me now
even on phone let it be,
You are my dearest friend now,
that was surprising I would say
Hell with all
I had a terrific day.

Don't know how to classify,
these mixed-up and messed-up ME today,
Couldn't say the things I'm feeling right now,
So I threw them in this poem anyway.

What you are to me...

You question my love
By asking 

why you write so much about me
I'm not angry at all of such notion
because its all you in my mind
its all you whom I seek.

you're the diversion
you're the center of thought
you're the poet's muse
you're the conscience of doing what i ought

You question my attitude
saying nothing at all about me
I feel pain in my heart
but i forget about it easily

You are like a needle

Or like a knife

stabbing my heart continuously

And i Love that pain

Which I know will subside.

I don't know

Why do I endure you

So much and so more

What I have become

It's exactly like

Sea for the shore

Why i don't want to die !!!?

In my dream I'm engaged to an amazing lady...Graceful, Beautiful and Humble.
So one day on a talk show or somewhere
I was asked in random questions game :
Why you don't want to die ?
So to that my answer was pretty much the same as following poem :

I love my life and i love to enjoy it with you,
I will stay away from death cause i want to spend it with you.

You work on your laptop and sometimes you make mistakes,
software messes up but you end up crying instead,
I have to be there to wipe your tears from your eye,
That's the reason girl i will stay away from death and i don't want to die.

You are always in a hurry to get in time to office
Forget your house keys or anything but you never notice
I have to be there to remind you and make dinner before you come home by
That's the reason girl i will stay away from death and  I don't want to die.

You are a bit clumsy but I love you for that,
You hurt your leg or knee or your brilliant head,
At that time of pain, I gotta be there beside you to embrace
I will never die and I'll stay away from death for your love and for your grace.

My baby sister

The bond we share
Its anonymous, unknown
like an unheard whisper,
I love you unlike anything
Cause you are my baby sister.

It's a strange connection
between me and you,
First time when we met
It was awkward & peculiar too.

After some days went by
We became friends,
It was an instant connection
Without any introduction

You are my baby sister
And I love you
May you get all you want
May all your dreams come true
I care for you and
I want this for you
May your dreams come true.

These Final Lines

what will I do without you
without that pretty face in my life
I thought you will be in my future
not leaving me over a immature strife

its hard to believe this is happening right now
when I understood nature of my feelings for you
I want you back here in heart of mine
But I just don't know how

My heart is controlling it's tears
no I'm not overseeing things my love
I cared for you more than you are thinking
you're smthng I adore more than the stars above

If you cant see my affection for you
then its better to stay away
I'll erase memory of you...no problem
but it cant be done in some hrs or day

I should say sorry for my love
which never could I so convey
I'm trying to tell you that in person
but these words always get in the way

Forget all this now
forget all these words
I'm done with you

I'm done loving you
I'm tired of writing
convincing poems with these emotions and letters.

Girl You are my bright moon

Girl, you are the bright moon
I tried to touch to
Simple earthling like me
forgot about the gravity cause

I looked at only you.

I flew towards the sky

Where you live
like a spark of firefly's fling
I reached half way there
without thinking a single thing.