Mixed feelings of my life

It's such an irony when I write something,
It just stays in my note book or mobile,
I can't even send it to the person I'm writing about,
It's either love or affection from some time.

I'm so clueless what I'll do about these poems,
It's a sentiment from my heart,
I may have been born in a wrong era, I think,
Where poetry hold no respect nor ground.

I'm not sad about it thought,
You may think I am depressed,
I'm just happy that I have words to spare,
My poetic thoughts over anger or distress.

My life is not so complicated,
I just made it to be,
How did this transformation went on,
Somebody pls explain it to me.

I was a super shy guy,
Almost invisible in college days,
One day changed me when I was in a hurry,
On that morning of 2000 February .

She just appeared infrnt of me,
From that morning fog,
I felt like I finally saw,
A goddess in a human form.

I'm not being extraneous here,
The scenario was like that,
But I was never the same next day,
Poetry gave me new life to start.

Dream and imagination of hers,
Became my best buds,
Looking at her everyday was heavenly bliss,
I did live few amazing days,
without a taint of woe like this.

It wouldn't be wrong to say,
I stalked her from a distance,
Watching her all the time in class,
Became more important than exams to pass.

Her mom was my professor in college,
She knew me from the day one,
Apparently I helped her after an accident,
Once when I went for a morning run.

She introduced me to the that girl,
And told her who I was,
She held my hand said thanks with a smile,
I said to the life and world...now it's OK even if I die.

Such a memory it is,
Randomly it came to my mind,
Wrote these many lines to tire you out,
Just to tell you she's happy with someone better...Yeah she's a happy mom without a doubt!!!