What inspires me!!!

Do words inspire me to write,
Or it's time of loneliness talking to me,
I just write that's all there,
and I write so randomly.

it's not pain nor it's affection for some,
I'm a private person, but I'm not so dumb,
Try as I might, I could fathom,
I wonder some times,
What did Eve say when she met up with Adam.

As I mentioned to you My dear reader,
You are reading something That's freaking random,
Thoughts come and go as they want,
In my solitude they haunt ,
Like morning dew on the lawn,
Imagination is unlimited,
When words help you colour your dawn.

So I leave you now,
Smile no smile,  Frown no frown,
I'm still writing, I'm still thinking,
While keeping my head upside down.

The elusive side

I wouldn't know the feeling of having someone beside,
It's not so bad when I say it,  but it is when I write,
How this all sounds, it's funny & sad at the same time,
My search is incomplete and 'time'...It always flies.

What should I do, where do I find the one,
For me It's a million dollar question ,
I'm suffering a bad case of lyrical congestion,
I'm under lot of stress...Getting a one way ticket to isolation.
At such times...

Like an Eagle,  self-doubt takes a flight,
In such chaos he goes everywhere ...
Either Left or right,
Uncertainty lands perfectly unto my mind,
In such confusion I end up in elusive side.

The teenager in me!!!

Why do I follow you & disturb you,
I wouldn't, if you didn't knew,
contact makes heart springs up anew,
It's something I wrote all for you.

You know me clearly,
Despicable with attitude but elite with words & poetry,
I know it's not 70's or 80's anymore,
To woo someone over few rhyming lines or scores,
But what else can I try,
I'm a gentleman at heart but I'm indeed damn shy.

You are one hell of a girl
You shine even on a rainy day
You are brave and away from sorrow
I know that's not a cliché
I hope to meet you again
Again and all over again
Cause I liked you in the past
And funnily I still do
I'm a scaredy cat of confrontation
I'm still a teenager at heart
Who still likes you.

Just a last note

Don't trouble yourself calling me,
Calling me friend, colleague or brother,
I'm a zombie or inhuman to be,
Don't ever just bother.

I wish I was too dead to cry,
To cry like this idiotically,
I'm so numb dumb to suffer,
Hope at least death will meet me ideally.

I wish I was more clear,
Clear about my goal and reason,
I wouldn't have looked like this,
Cause my flaws were like open season.

So you really don't need to bother,
To care for me in any way,
It'll waste time, words, and other things,
I'll soon go far far away!!!

Why did you created me!!!???

When death will come to me,
Beautiful rain I won't see,
Sun won't touch my face,
Moon will fold in a faint embrace.

I'll make new friends,
In the other world where I'll be,
Heaven or Hell, it's still undecided,
But things are indeed wicked,
Arousing my curiosity.

If Hell allotted to me,
Neither shall I feel sad nor any empathy,
I'm a man with a dark past,
Let's say, I ate life of thousand lives
without any sympathy.

There is no place I desire to go,
Nobody is ther, who's waiting for me,
I'm a killer and a murderer,
Of all my hope, fate and destiny.

If I'm shown passage to heaven,
I shall find that God,
The One who created me,
Just for amusement,
He gave me this mind like a scar,
And abandoned me for eternity!

I may have been the puppet,
Of this time of life that binds,
I don't know the righteous path,
To go on to, wher my decree guides.

I shall avenge all my friends,
That I killed with my bare hands,
Without any love or regret,
I did such deed,
Oh my lord of lords
Why did u create me!?

Innocence Or idiocy

Either my innocence or the plain idiocy
literally amazes me,
Saying so because,
I was happy to see your call
that came unexpectedly.

We are good friends,
And thats the best part,
I don't know, with this poem,
you'll be comfortable or not.

I'm writing this
Cause I wanted to write,
Since so long
It was on my mind.

Let me clear the air for you,
Before questions pop up in your mind,
It's a poetic theme I came across,
So It's not what it looks like.

Words help me write these feelings,
They are Unknown, anonymous and a bit appealing,
Your call in the middle of the day,
Made me think you need help in some way
But it was a sheer mistake
And that was a funny incidental break

So thanks for that call
In a way you saved me from a fall
It also became a theme for this song
It's all fate!!!

Oh my Iove of life

Every single touch
By someone special
Has its own memory
It's indeed sentimental

It's for u my love

its significant presence in you
Beats of my heart that comes to
U don't know what u need to do
And I'm here stifled by your aroma.

You drown me in my own sweet bitterness
You hypnotize my heart endless
I'm filled with your warm caress
And now I'm more than vivid and enthralling

What more words should I choose
I'm so happy , I'm singing the blues
No I'm not wasted on cheap foreign booze
It's your touch that gets Me high!

So, be with me forever
All time by my side
Flow thru my vein
Let my sleep go in vain
I don't care of anybody but u
I love u more than u
my Coffee mug is shiney clean
Just for u my dear love...oh my Caffeine